I didn’t attend my rape crisis appointment in the end. About an hour before I was due to leave I left them a message. I thanked them for their help thus far but I didn’t want to come in.
In truth I was scared.
I was scared that it would be a one step forward, fifteen steps back type of affair.
I can recognise that there has been significant progress with my PTSD therapy and I was scared that it may impact all of that progress, you know? Sitting in a room with a counsellor having to talk about it all, without any techniques to help or NLP, well I think that’s just going to result in a negative impact rather than a positive one.
I just didn’t see the point in even trying.
I’m not too sure whether that is a fantastic realisation to have, or a downright pathetic one…