If I had raped my partner at the time, and you know, even unintentionally (yeah, I know), well I would hate myself. I think the guilt would be SO overwhelming.
The guilt alone would make me hand myself in, 100%. So, I must ask myself as to why begging him for an apology is apparently such a huge ask? If I was him I would bend over backwards to ensure that person knew it was regretted, that I hate myself for ruining them. You wouldn’t have to ever ask for an apology because I wouldn’t stop making it known that I was sorry for doing it..
Surely that is just basic human decency, right?